Someone Like you - by an amateur

My shittier than I'd wish rendition of Adele's song that is stuck in my head my heart my soul and my mouth from when I wake up in the morning. Literally - this morning I woke up, singing it, my eyes were still closed. Its weird. I thought so at the time too even though I was still cloudy-headed with dreaming.

Falling
In love
Until
You hit the ground.

Shadows & Ghosts

Restless is this lethargy
As it seeps across the bones like a chill
And clenches the mind like a feverish ache
That settles in the eyes
To shut them half amd darken much
The world before us.
Oh how hunger holds no thirst
And the stomach bothers not
With bellygroans of wanting no
Tis only a deep churning in the very pit
Of ourselves, that feels physically sick to its core, for reasons of sentiment.
How sentiment turns to nothing
A vacant numbness that holds
Loosely grasping but tightly clenched
In the feathery tendrils of its iron folds.
How the world holds no sleep
Amd day feels quite like night
And night is like a bottomless hell of shadows and monsters and blight
Never shall we find our peace
In the pieces that we have become
The open wounds have dried like stone
Our zeal, our zest, has hardened like bone,
Our eyes like a long dead furnace
Where an intense fire once burned
Amd now nothing there is left,
In earnest, nothing
Where i used to be.
So i wander the ghostly world
As the vague, ghostly shadow of me.

Dislocated

Unforseeable exits
That leave the land arift
With dusty rains
That settle
And turn the mountains loose
To drift.
Oh how they wander in a meander
That winds about the lands
How they purse their withered jaws
And grate teeth against the sands
Never quite knowing
Which way their home has gone
Never to find the resting place
Of land where they belong
And so beneath the open sky
That peels back its nightly skin
And washes the earth in storms of rain
To cleanse it from its wear
Does this broken mountain travel
Its outstretched hands of stone
Praying for a moments peace
In the burial ground of its home.

Windblown as a Leaf

Never like a windblown leaf
Caught amidst a hurricane
So listless, lost
And tattered,
Battered by the stab of rain
And how the moment
Split like the land
That bursts like a bloody gash
Upon the hot-baked broken sand
Never to come together.
Empty chambers,
Vast with nought,
That tremble like a torch
Sputter gutter in the wind
With not a flame to scorch
Oh how she blows away like dust
The ashes of an outline
Crumble in that wayward gust
To leave the landscape bare
Where footprints stop, like stranded ghosts
With no one, standing there.

Forgiveness in Love

I would have forgiven any mistake
I would have looked over any flaw
I would have let go any wrongs you did
Forgotten tears you made me cry
Put aside the worst of our fights
You could have told me anything
Shown me the darkest side of you
I wish you could just understand
That despite and for your best, your worst,
I would still love you.
I would stay by your side
I would hold your hand in mine
And know it would all be all right.
The one condition that i ask you
For my unconditional love for you
Dont hide any of it
Dont lie about any of it
Always tell me the truth
Believe that nothing honest
you can say
Would change my heart for you.
And know that if we have trust
We have everything and
Theres nothing in this world that you could do to make me stop loving you.
If you had only told the truth
I would have stayed by your side
I would have never lost my love
If you had never lied
Despite the way you twisted fate
Amd twisted all i knew
Alongside my broken hearted hate
I somehow still love you.
Perhaps you were never true to me
But my love, was true, for you.
And so when i say goodbye
To the partner of my soul
That so completely stole my heart,
You will always have a piece in part,
And i'll never be whole
Again, complete i was with you
The love of a lifetime
Once, so real, but so untrue
Not all of us end up in pairs
Perhaps this is my fate
I found the love of my life
But we couldnt make it last
My perfect match, my soul mate
The blast from all my past lives passed.
If things had been different,
If you just told the truth
Perhaps in this life it could have worked
We could have held on till the end
The love of my life, for the rest of my life
Till my last breath i would have spent
Gladly by your side.
If only you had known my love was so Deep that you had nothing to hide...
If only you had turned to me
You never stood alone
And yet you forgot we were a team,
So we never made it home.
Every night in my dreams
Things are as they should be
But my life is being lived without you
It feels so wrong and out of place.
Nothing where it should be
Nothing as it should feel,
Memories as bright as day
That take me far away
Back in time and by your side
When all my dreams were coming true
When i was never happier
When i saw the rest of our lives together
Everytime i looked at you.
Amd now all i have left are secrets
Broken picture frames
Distorted faces smiling, in love
And the shiver down my spine
Every time i hear your name.
Dreams that will never come true
Memories that will fade away
Im holding on and losing you
Even knowing you can never stay
Knowing things will never change
Never go back ti how they were
Never progress, for us,
And maybe never move on.
If only things were diffferent
Then maybe you and i
Would finally get
The happy ending
Together, before we die
Like romeo amd juliet
Living to a ripe old age
In love and laughter and peacefulness
To the end of their elderly days..
Perhaps the greatest loves of all
All consuming intense loves,
The ones that burn the brightest
Are the ones that last but not a moment
And are extinguished with the slightest breath
Of reality -
The ones that die out quite most painfully.

I refuse

No more voices from the past
I won't listen to you
I won't let the beatings last
Past the fist-fall where they do
I won't beat myself up
In the memory of you.

Fade away like thunder
Raining down my world
Trying to tear my life asunder
Roaring in my head
Even when the skies are dry
And made of blue and white
Even when I'm smiling -
I'm terrified inside
Every time I hear the words
Or see the sight of you
Pulling my away from home
And stealing my childhood
Every time I feel the chill
That I might prove you right
And fail, and end up in the dirt -
Or turn out just like you.
Every time I see myself
And you reflected back
Every time I reach out
And feel air
Close in my hands.
Every time I open up
And give it all away
All of my, all my heart
For nothing, but pieces.
I won't withhold my trust forever
I'll just never trust YOU again,
I'll never ever love you
I'll never be your friend.

At my darkest hour
Where the world has turned to ice
I won't let myself be lost again
I won't listen to your voices.
I won't let them turn my feet
I won't let them close my eyes
I won't let them make me afraid
I won't let them turn my heart to ice
I wont' fear your name.
I won't be the girl your actions made
I won't be the fool you played.
I won't let you decide my worth
I'm worth ten of all of you
This was not what I deserved.
You chase me in my nightmares
You hide inside my dreams
You wait for me when I wake up
To pierce my life again
To break me into pieces
Just when I thought I came so far
Even though I'm a little chipped
A little worse for a wear a lot
Too many times re-sewn, re-ripped.
You gave me wounds worth bleeding for
You gave me scars for life
But I will not lay down forever
And push myself
Against your knife.
I won't be the one to bare
These scars for all to see.
I dont need your sorry anymore -
Its you that did this, live with your guilt,
But now, you can't touch me.

Take it all - Adele

Apology to the empty page

Apology to the empty page
Waiting for my pen
For words and lines and colours
That feel like they'll never
Spill again
When the love and smiles fade
The blood and sweat and tears drain away
Like a kaleidoscope of sentiment
Ink swirling down the sink,
To leave a vast and empty page
Of white as numb as snow
With not a footstep, not a fingerprint
Or heart, engraved in the plane of its cold.
Dull as nothing, with no words
No musical notes to spare
How could I spare even the slightest song
When no sound but silence is living there.
So I fill this empty plot
With apologies and excuses
I cannot express this expressionless chill
That's settled deep inside
And shelled me out, a hollow skin
That feels quite like it's died
But living among this vague winter landscape
As subtle as a ghost
Barely there, too spent to care,
Expired to the most.
I have nothing to give you but
Words that mean nothing at all
Words that describe but emptiness
I cannot give you poetry
I cannot give you art
But perhaps in the nothing I have left
To give
You find the very picture of:
Signed, and resigned,
My Heart.

Listen to the words - Fire to the Rain by Adele

I love this. Her songs are beautiful every day I have one stuck in my head, they really get to me, yesterday morning I woke up singing 'Someone like you'

Goodnights unsaid/unheard

Night is so lonely
With the stars so out of sight
The moon is solemn cold and shut
Like one half blinking eye
The blanket holds no heat,
The bed feels twice its size
But worst of all, the silence
As you hold the sleep at bay,
Fiddling and fidgetting the nightmares and dreams away,
Sheep procrastinating besides the fence,
Hiding away in bedtime pages,
From the moment where you would finally
decide
To close
Your eyes.
Knowing full well that when you do
Your lips
Will open your mouth
And before you can stop that feeling blue
That remembers its time to say goodnight -
That you cant shake off even though you know
Theres nobody here to say goodnight to.