Dragon

2012.
Its my year.
The year of the dragon.
You can expect great things from me.
I expect great things for myself...
Please g-d.
This is my year.
The start of great things bh.
The start of many more great positive things to come bh.
I won't let it be any other way.
Life is full of lessons and nothing ever comes easily.
But I choose to rise above it, and not let it get me down.
I can't change the world, I can't change anyone else,
I can't make anyone treat me differently or better, I can't erase my past, or expect anyone else to make up for it, and I can't be certain of my future.
But I can try, and never give up.
I can choose to look at the world differently, and see what always had the power to hurt me, as something harmless and powerless.
I can let go of my past, and never let it weigh me down again, never let it tell me who to be or where I'm going, or what I can or can't do, it will never make me, it will never break me, never again.
I do trust, I trust in myself. And I trust in something bigger than myself, I trust in the one that's always going to look out for me, no matter how lost I get.
And I know, even if the road gets dark and twisted, I will find my way in the end.
I'm not perfect, and no one else has to like that. No one else has to understand me. No one else has to listen. No one else has to give me love, or take care of me.
Because I dont need them to.
I accept me. I love me. I have everything I need, right her. And I dont need to try to be any more, or any less, for anything, or anyone.
Yes.
I said it once, but now it really fits.
Sometimes things have to fall apart, for them to fall into place.
Sometimes, you have to hit rock bottom, only to know that there's nowhere to go here but up. And then to realise that the sky is the limit.

So yes. Today I have no poetry, no pictures.
I have clarity, and its a poetry, an art in itself. It brings me more peace, more release, than anything ever has B"H.

I lost me, for a long while. A long long time, never even realising. But I found me again.
Yup. 'Daniela's back' as she said. And she told me she was happy to see me again. I'm happy to see me again too.
And I am not going anywhere, ever again.

PS working on the fairy tale biography.... coming soon.